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For Dillon

I Love... The way  You are the oldest but act more as a leader than a boss The way  You guide your sister and take the time to treat her kindly The way  You are becoming your own person and surprising me daily with your choices The way  You can sometimes feel so much wiser than 4 The way  You are so curious and thoughtful The way  You love to crack jokes and you can almost see you waiting with butterflies in your stomach to see how hard people laugh The way  You are such a boy in so many ways but also always my baby The way  You come into our room in the morning and without a word just slide into my side of the bed for a little cuddle time The way  You know right from wrong The way  You are always trying to be better at whatever it is you are doing The way  You are learning to manage your expectations and reality The way  You are always coming up with something creative to play The way You will try anything The way  You trust, you trust with your whole being and it is incredible The w

For Elyse

I Love..... The way Your little hands wrap around my neck and squeeze your big baby cheeks against mine The way You say Ma-Ma, with your head cocked to the side and your eyes smiling at me The way  You run through the house, galloping like you’ve just been let out of the gate The way  You say come on I show you, pumping your hand and begging me to follow you like you have the biggest treasure to show me just around the corner The way  You dance any time there is a beat The way  You laugh at yourself and say, I funny The way  You laugh at anyone or anything just because you think the timing is right  Really just the way You laugh The way  You are always encouraging others and pat kids you don’t even know on the back and say good job buddy The way  You beam with pride whenever you can keep up with your brother The way  You say, “whatch dis!” and then run from one end of the room to the other then turn to us for applause as if you’ve completed your first marathon and then do it ten more t

Who let me be a grown up????? (They should be fired)

You know, this blog stuff could get people in trouble. To me it can one day much like looking back a journal and laughing at who you used to be, what you used to think was important, etc. but now you are sharing it. Others may laugh at it, with it, or about it, they all will most certainly judge it but that’s ok because that’s the point.  I have always wrote out my thoughts, these days I share more than others, that’s all. I may laugh at these thoughts one day or you may laugh at them today, either way I am still thinking them and therefore sharing them so do with them what you may.  Today I held a friends newborn and it made the world feel right!  It also made me think of my journey as a mother and my life’s path. As I reflected on my first born, how life has changed since and the whole experience I thought about A LOT of things. Life in general has been emotional lately and so my thoughts have been all over the place this week so bare with me. We lost a dear Grandfather whom we will

Who am I and what happened to the girl with the bag of Doritos?

In case you haven't noticed I am unbalanced, mentally, physically, emotionally, you name it. I have no shame. You probably are too, you're probably just wiser than to blog about it. (boring! where's the entertainment value in that?) Truthfully up until now I have not had the desire to balance much, I have enjoyed my crazy, fun yet flighty, busy yet lazy, always doing something yet rarely completing anything unorganized self but man being unbalanced is exhausting. That's why I am working on balancing my life a little more. My husband and I have simplified our lives very much over the past year and it feels fantastic. I love being what I used to consider selfish (my definition for not trying to save the world and everyone in it every day all day) for once and really just focusing on us and our little family. Now that my priorities are in order I am working on balancing those things to fine tune my life a little more. As part of that effort Aaron and I have been work

My thoughts on a big question.....I would love to hear yours......

I am starting to think that the grass will always feel like it is greener on the other side, even when we’ve been there and realize that is stinks like manure.  Stay at home mom vs. working mother to me is one of the great debates, which is harder? Which would you rather? I have contemplated those questions many many times and I use the green grass analogy because as it stands now I think the working mother some times sits at her desk and thinks about the pros of the stay at home mom’s life and vice versa rather than the pros of their own situation. Not everyone will be able or want to experience both lifestyles to realize they both really have their own very distinct set of pros and cons. It’s been on my brain a lot lately because I wasn’t always a stay at home mom and the “honeymoon” phase is starting to wear off a bit. I am coming up on my one year anniversary of becoming a stay at home mom, to be exact June 4th was my last day of work and will be forever etched in my mind because

Did I call it or did I call it????

So just as I thought, I haven't exactly followed up with this blog but I am back and I will try. I started writing a lot about my family and motherhood right after I had my first child Dillon, however it never made it to any sort of an organized place like a blog because I was a new mom, so I jotted it down wherever and whenever the thoughts came to me. A perfect example of this is that I was just reading a book I have read before and enjoyed and found this on the back few blank pages..... "Incredibly blessed and child obsessed - my new mommy mantra!" It is such a strange phenomenon to feel like YOUR life begins again when you are no longer focused on your life at all! It is so weird to me that you start to see how blessed you are at the exact time that all the things you previously thought blessed your life don't matter at all anymore. I can honestly say that from here on out I may never get enough relaxation, sleep or time to myself & I may never be thin

It has occured to me....

That my days and nights can be categorized into a few lists but never quite actually checked off many of those lists...... A list of those lists......since I am good at the list part, not the being very productive part..... - If I were Martha Stewart's twin I would get done...... - I am really going to try and get done..... - I NEED to get done..... - My kids may actually allow me to get done...... - I will think about getting done (but only after 10 minutes of DVR'd motivating Oprah and it will only last 10 more minutes before the kids get up from their nap)...... - I am not going to get done but simply writing it down on my list makes me feel accomplished.... - I am going to actually DO! You see, my lists are important to describe because this blog has been on each of those lists several times each and now it is on my list of things I am probably going to start and never actually complete......I am going to hit publish now though so it moves on to my...........