RealMamaNoDrama

So for my birthday I thought it would be fun to take a look back and see what the last ten years have taught me, I thought I would call it, a list of my absolutes.... A few “ absolutes” my twenties have taught me..... First thing I thought the last decade has taught me was.....There are no absolutes! Only someone with no life experience would think there were. ;) If you asked me ten years ago I would have told you I would ABSOLUTELY NEVER be a stay at home mom, I would never drive a mini van, I would never homeschool, I would never ever do X, Y and Z. Blah blah blah. I am. I do. I will. And I have done A through Z!  But still just for fun....these are my “ absolutely-for-nows” ........ It is absolutely OK to look in the mirror and not recognize yourself! In fact it’s great, it means you are evolving. Why oh why do we think we know who we are so concretely, so young? Then we waste years (our twenties) trying so hard NOT to be someone “we’re not”....We essentia...

 I swear I am not a hater..... usually...today? Maybe.... I like the VS clearance catalogs just as much as the next girl, albeit when I am feeling especially large and in charge I do toss them in the garbage with a certain level of anger before I even cracking the front cover, but you'll just have to trust me this was not one of those times. I was not especially bitter or anything of the sort while thinking these not so nice comments. I just truly feel like this latest edition was just a little off.  I don't know exactly why but the poses seemed stranger than normal, the sexy under tones not so under or toned down but more so in your face and over the top. You tell me if you were thinking any of the same things I was as I went through the pages. Here is a small sample of my thoughts.  Is she trying to prove she has clear nostrils??? Maybe her probation officer took this pictures. Nah, she probably just smells a french fry. Is she trying to pop her booty like Be...

Today was a great meeting of the minds with some girlfriends and as usual we all discussed our lives. Today I discussed openly the problem I have with negativity, not just my own but others and how when I am trying to be positive how their negativity drives me nuts. It’s truly a great group of women you are speaking with when you don’t just walk away feeling heard but also with sound advice. Two things stayed with me after our conversation, first that I can only control my behavior (although I take that as a challenge ;) lol and second that happiness is a choice and we all have to choose it for ourselves, I can’t make that choice for another. (again a challenge)  I thought to myself, that what I can do though is live my boring little life in such a manner that people think, if she can be that happy all the time then I can too! Then I can pray that it makes it seem that much more attainable for themselves and they too will choose to find happiness. So that’s my challenge for myself ...

I Love... The way  You are the oldest but act more as a leader than a boss The way  You guide your sister and take the time to treat her kindly The way  You are becoming your own person and surprising me daily with your choices The way  You can sometimes feel so much wiser than 4 The way  You are so curious and thoughtful The way  You love to crack jokes and you can almost see you waiting with butterflies in your stomach to see how hard people laugh The way  You are such a boy in so many ways but also always my baby The way  You come into our room in the morning and without a word just slide into my side of the bed for a little cuddle time The way  You know right from wrong The way  You are always trying to be better at whatever it is you are doing The way  You are learning to manage your expectations and reality The way  You are always coming up with something creative to play The way You will try anything The way  You t...

I Love..... The way Your little hands wrap around my neck and squeeze your big baby cheeks against mine The way You say Ma-Ma, with your head cocked to the side and your eyes smiling at me The way  You run through the house, galloping like you’ve just been let out of the gate The way  You say come on I show you, pumping your hand and begging me to follow you like you have the biggest treasure to show me just around the corner The way  You dance any time there is a beat The way  You laugh at yourself and say, I funny The way  You laugh at anyone or anything just because you think the timing is right  Really just the way You laugh The way  You are always encouraging others and pat kids you don’t even know on the back and say good job buddy The way  You beam with pride whenever you can keep up with your brother The way  You say, “whatch dis!” and then run from one end of the room to the other then turn to us for applause as if you’ve completed y...

You know, this blog stuff could get people in trouble. To me it can one day much like looking back a journal and laughing at who you used to be, what you used to think was important, etc. but now you are sharing it. Others may laugh at it, with it, or about it, they all will most certainly judge it but that’s ok because that’s the point.  I have always wrote out my thoughts, these days I share more than others, that’s all. I may laugh at these thoughts one day or you may laugh at them today, either way I am still thinking them and therefore sharing them so do with them what you may.  Today I held a friends newborn and it made the world feel right!  It also made me think of my journey as a mother and my life’s path. As I reflected on my first born, how life has changed since and the whole experience I thought about A LOT of things. Life in general has been emotional lately and so my thoughts have been all over the place this week so bare with me. We lost a dear Grandfathe...

In case you haven't noticed I am unbalanced, mentally, physically, emotionally, you name it. I have no shame. You probably are too, you're probably just wiser than to blog about it. (boring! where's the entertainment value in that?) Truthfully up until now I have not had the desire to balance much, I have enjoyed my crazy, fun yet flighty, busy yet lazy, always doing something yet rarely completing anything unorganized self but man being unbalanced is exhausting. That's why I am working on balancing my life a little more. My husband and I have simplified our lives very much over the past year and it feels fantastic. I love being what I used to consider selfish (my definition for not trying to save the world and everyone in it every day all day) for once and really just focusing on us and our little family. Now that my priorities are in order I am working on balancing those things to fine tune my life a little more. As part of that effort Aaron and I have been work...